Merry Christmas Everyone!

It's the season of Merry and Mirth, the season of giving. It is a time when we commemorate the birth of the Christians' god into the mortal world. Today I went for a dinner with my maternal extended family. It was an impressionable experience to speak to my cousin. It was strange how I could speak with them on the same level when just a few years ago I daren't even initiate a conversation. Well, somehow my cousin, Mark and his fiance were my direct seniors from SC3 12 years ago. Amazing! And somehow, I managed to sell most of my Fun-orama tickets.

But back to the topic. Christmas, to me, brings back many bad memories. Memories of how I was forsaken by Christians during my childhood and teenage years. How my parents coerced me to attend church despite my vehement contumacy. I remember how I used to admire a few Christians, but this only led to disenchantment and further self-disparagement. Christianity's popularity in Singapore mainly due to the community it provides rather than purely the objective of seeking the supreme deity. The hypocrisy and inherent contradictions within the community has made me resent the superficiality of Christianity. I don't hate Christians. In fact, some of my best friends are Christians. But unfortunately, I have come to relate Christianity with the pain of rejection. I will not try to argue with religious people about the existence of a supreme deity for to me, whether a god exists or not, it doesn't matter because god has no reason to meddle in the affairs of humankind. This is the outlook of an apatheist.