I don't think I can make it. I'm mentally prepared to retake the 'A's during NS. I wanna go to medical school. I want to have my ideal dream and I'm gonna fight for it. But reality gives me a big fat slap in the face. Econs is going to drag me to hell and I don't know how to stop the descend. But at least I've got friends equally lost with me. At least I know I do not fight alone. But we've got little time. 35 days to be exact and thats a mere 5 weeks.

Sure I'm done with chemistry basic revision and bio is going to be a breeze, but I know math will take a while. Econs is going to take even longer.

Everyday is dreary and I grow weary of life. And something tells me life isn't going to get any better. I may end up working like a slave for the rest of my life. With property prices sky high I'm going to be ridden with debt in my thirties when I buy my own flat. I will probably never find true love no matter how much I dream of it, because it does not exist for me in my society. I will live alone in my HDB flat for the rest of my life. When I'm old there will be no one to care for me and will register myself into an old folks' home. When I die, no one will be at my funeral. And in the grave, I will rot under an unmarked grave, forgotten in the sands of time.

I wish something would just save me from this ignominous destiny. Killer litter? Traffic accident? Electrocution by lightning? Drowning? Heart attack/Stroke? I can't save myself, I fear pain but I'm not afraid to die.